Saturday, May 02, 2009
struggle
I'm struggling tonight. The problem - I went clothes shopping. Nothing fancy. At all. I just don't have much of anything that looks even ok. I need clothes. It was hard. I've never had to buy that size before. I would tell myself that it's only temporary, but that's not been the case in the past. Ever. I only go up. I've never gone down. It's a struggle. I want to jump on the treadmill right now. But it's after midnight. And I have a long day tomorrow. A fun day. But a long day. I want to just quit eating much. But I'm nursing. And I have to eat. And depriving myself does not help my emotional state. At least in the past. But obviously the current situation doesn't help much either. So that's all. Just a vent. Just wanted to put it out there. To be open. And honest. And make sure that those who care about me know that I'm struggling.
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I'll be praying for you and the struggle. And I want you to know that you are not alone.
I'm sorry your struggling. Hang in there!
Anyone who has ever dieted knows how terribly unpleasant it is, I can't imagine while nursing and recovering. I had to get one pair of capris from Lane Bryant after being too upset to buy clothes for months, it was not a fun day, but they fit so I bit the bullet.
A few small things have helped me recently. 200ish protein cals between meals help me from overeating when I sit down to eat. Measuring my portions. I was shocked to learn how much food actually weighs. I'm sure your doctor can tell you what exactly your nutritional needs are and then you'd have a black and white guide. I also make sure to drink two liters of water a day (lemon juice helps) and 20 grams of fiber. Stay full(ish), and keeps things "moving."
Didn't mean to sound intrusive, I just know where you're coming from. And remember, I don't think any woman loves her thighs.
Thanks for sharing. Will be praying for you.
It will get better! Mema
Poor Nathan, having to make a living!! Just kidding. Good luck. Mema
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